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November 3, 2002 Dear Rebecca, Yesterday your mom and I spent most of the day at home. More flowers came to the house from friends, and I brought back cards from our friends in the St. Vincent de Paul Society. We developed some pictures that had been taken at the hospital, but they were not very good, which makes me so glad that I took some with my own camera. We will have very few pictures of you, and I want those pictures to be as good as possible. We will never forget you, but we do want to have these few reminders that we can see and touch. There used to be a commonly held belief in a state of being called Limbo for unbaptized babies, but yesterday it was us, your parents, who were in Limbo. We did all the usual chores that need doing--cleaning, eating, washing clothes--but food has lost its savor, and much of life its urgency. Today we will go to Mass together, and I will be praying for you, but also for your mom who is so sad--she keeps trying to figure out what she could have done differently to save you, but I don't think we could...and now you are with the Lord and saints. Last night I called your aunt Cindy, who lives in Florida, to finally tell her the news. I know she will be sad, because she loves children, and now she will not now her newest niece. We so miss the chance to hold you, to hear your cries… Love, Dad |
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